Watch me bruise and bleed for you

Sep. 21st, 2017 12:39 pm
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I've been in good moods for the past 2 or 3 days now.
Last night, I was typing in Devin is... Into the google search engine. What came up was fucking hilarious. I'll do an entry with what came up later.
I have at least 4 songs I wrote saved in my phone. I have lots of notes saved. I don't use that pages thing.
I want new/more books to read. In ninth grade, I read books like Twisted, Speak, Smack, Cut, Go Ask Alice, and Sara Dessen books were my guilty pleasure. Twisted was my favorite book and I want to read it again. I want to read Prozac Nation too. I'm not sure if the public library would have books like these or not.
Also, book titles make good band names.
I'm not sure what to really update about right now.

Shana Tova!

Sep. 20th, 2017 05:16 pm
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For all those who observe, have a great new year! And best wishes to all the rest. See you in 5778!

'The Jewish New Year, Rosh Hashanah actually means “Head of the Year.” Just like the head controls the body, our actions on Rosh Hashanah have a tremendous impact on the rest of the year.

As we read in the Rosh Hashanah prayers, each year on this day “all inhabitants of the world pass before G‑d like a flock of sheep,” and it is decreed in the heavenly court “who shall live, and who shall die ... who shall be impoverished and who shall be enriched; who shall fall and who shall rise.”

It is a day of prayer, a time to ask the Almighty to grant us a year of peace, prosperity and blessing. But it is also a joyous day when we proclaim G‑d King of the Universe. The Kabbalists teach that the continued existence of the universe depends on G‑d’s desire for a world, a desire that is renewed when we accept His kingship anew each year on Rosh Hashanah.'

May you be inscribed and sealed for a good year.

Linkage 2017-09-18

Sep. 18th, 2017 08:57 pm
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Theory vs. the Jews: Michael Weingrad on Bruno Chaouat.
My friend Michael Weingrad reviews Bruno Chaouat’s book on postmodern, academic anti-Semitism.
'The answer to the book’s title is straightforward: No, Theory is not good for the Jews (or, for that matter, anyone who cares about intellectual and moral clarity). And, yes, there are probably better ways to spend one’s life than marinating in postmodernism’s silly conceits and tin-eared jargon. And yet, if Chaouat hesitates to draw such un-ambiguous conclusions he has nevertheless performed a service here by chronicling a range of Theory’s recent intellectual and moral failures and how they continue to revolve around Jews, the Holocaust, and the State of Israel. This is worth knowing about since, to adapt Trotsky’s warning, Jews may not be interested in Theory, but Theory is very interested in Jews. ...'

Africa / India / Israel: Devsena Mishra in JPost.
'... Africa is blessed with an abundance of natural resources. Africa has 60% of the world’s arable land reserves. The combination of Israeli innovation/conceptual abilities and India’s “collective effort, inclusive growth” approach can provide the right direction to sustainable development efforts in Africa. Clean and renewable energy, healthcare, agriculture and rural development, vocational/technical education, and entrepreneurship promotion are some of the key areas where India and Israel need to collaborate for a better future for Africa.'

Masoud Barzani on Kurdish Independence Referendum: Rudaw
'Amid numerous calls to postpone next week’s independence referendum and focus on discussions with Baghdad, President Masoud Barzani told a visiting British minister that they will not postpone the referendum without commitment from Baghdad to begin independence negotiations, with international guarantees that agreements will be enforced. ... “[T]he referendum will not be delayed only for the sake of holding talks with Baghdad without knowing the content of these talks or knowing what international guarantees they will have,” the Kurdish statement read.'

Cooking Insight

Sep. 18th, 2017 07:37 pm
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The value of using tongs to cook hot food is greatly diminished if you place the tongs on the stove so that the handle gets as hot as the burner itself.

Monday evening: Driving.

Sep. 18th, 2017 06:20 pm
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Around the beginning of 2017, I got set up as a driver for Uber Eats, figuring I might make a little extra money in my spare time by driving food deliveries. But not much came of it, as I discovered that there was very little work to be had. I'd turn on the app, and wait for calls ... and wait and wait and wait. Eventually I gave up, and shelved the idea.

Recently I got an email from Uber saying that they'd brought a lot more restaurants on board and made numerous other improvements to the service. So last weekend I decided to see for myself, and lo and behold it was a world of difference. Calls started coming in, and finally I was driving deliveries and making money. I drove every day from Sunday through Thursday, and drove again yesterday. I'm taking tonight (Monday night) off, but looking forward to doing some runs tomorrow night.

For most of my adult life I've had some degree of anxiety around driving, but I think this is going to finally let me get over it once and for all. Plus it's a great way to explore Portland, especially the east side where I expect to be moving soon - and, of course, I could use the money.

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Sep. 18th, 2017 07:32 pm
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I took half a clonazepam a few hours ago because I was so upset and I felt like I was about to have a panic attack. It made me really sleepy. :/
I don't know what to make for dinner.
I went outside and sat up in the bleachers at showers field. That's my new favorite spot. I wrote a journal entry and a song that turned out sort of ok.
A bunch of people came and they were skating on the side walks and down the stairs. I wanted to skate with them but I didn't know them and felt too fucked up from the clonazepam to skate.
I'm so lame. I wish I would skated with them even though I really suck at it. I was nervous they would judge me or make fun of me.
I want to sleep...........

updates about things

Sep. 18th, 2017 09:01 am
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Well this week was somewhat frustrating, but such is life.  I've been having some issues with money due to student loans, but I've been budgeting as much as I can.  No new video games for a little while anyway.  I also found out that the company that has my students loans is being sued by the federal government in a class action lawsuit.  I hope those fuckers loose the lawsuit, and I can some relief from these loans.  It'll probably take quite a few years before everything plays out.  Apparently a lot of people have been having issues with them, and they've committed fraud against a bunch of customers.   

That aside I went to pick up my niece from work the other day, and a small rock hit my windshield cracking it glass. D:  I have to figure out how I'm going to get that fixed.  Ugh, I swear it's so frustrating.  I'll have to call my insurance company, and see what they say about it.  

As for fandom type things I've been getting caught up on Dragon Ball Z.  I used my amazon gift card to buy Season 5 recently.  Also I've still been playing Fallout New Vegas, and I like it a lot more than Fallout 4.  It has more RPG elements than FO4, and isn't just mindless shooting just for the hell of it.  I also bought my friend Ocarina of Time for her DS, and she loves it.  I was glad I was able to get her gift to her on her birthday.  

I've also been playing lots of Nier Automata lately, and the plot is taking a very interesting turn.  I'm really enjoying the game, and I'm glad I bought it. 

My anxiety has been a bit better as of late.  I don't find myself getting anxious nearly as much.  I do wonder if I'm becoming apathetic towards people though.  I find myself having that "I don't give a shit" attitude a lot more lately than usual.  I asked my mom about it, and she said she doesn't think I'm becoming apathetic which is good.  I don't want to be, but some people really annoy me sometimes.  

Well that's all for now.  Here's a song I've had on repeat lately from the new Brand New record.  

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Sep. 18th, 2017 01:08 am
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I feel like there's something missing in my life and I can't exactly figure out what.

Top 3

Sep. 16th, 2017 04:03 pm
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 Elit3 for today

1) A friend is here today working on the front area of the roof. 

2) Just found a way to print off lyrics and guitar chords at a music site I just joined. 

3) Glad to have the laundry done for a few days.


Sep. 16th, 2017 12:45 pm
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Yesterday, I didn't post and I'm already upset with myself over that. Instead, I stepped out to the Dollar store for a few things and then picked up a sub for dinner. Ever since I moved to Port Hope it's not often I buy dinner out just for myself. So, it really was a treat, a large Steak and Cheese sub. When I got home, I put the tv on and watched a few episodes of The Munsters Season 1 on DVD. Yes it's an old show, but still cracks me up. 

Today, our friend is here doing another section of our roof. This is a never ending job so it seems and feels. Last week J came and stripped one whole side of the roof and then put up the ice/snow shield and shingled it all. My husband gets out there helping the best he can, handing up shingles, nails and so forth. I get out there and help clear away all the old shingles and put them in the back of hubby's pick up truck. It's just a hard job as J is up on the roof all by himself. We can't afford a roofing company, so we're doing sections as we can afford the materials. J donates his time to help us. Other than helping clear about the debris, I'm on lunch duty,  or making dinner or taking out bottles of water for them. I wish I could help more, but sadly I can't. And of course today is really hot and humid, so I keep going out to check on them. In a couple of weeks J will come back and do the last large section of the roof, and hopefully we're done with the this project for a few years. Also we've got a family member that is a mason (and will be giving us the family and friends discount) that will be coming in a couple of weeks to take down a large section of the chimney. We've had water leaking into the kitchen and after our mason had a look he too believes it's coming in because of the damaged chimney. There's not much point in rebuilding the chimney as we don't use it. We don't have a fireplace, we have gas heat and the pipes go out through the concrete wall of the house. In fact no one here uses their chimneys any longer. Should we decide to get a fireplace insert it would be either gas or electric.

So far I've managed to get the bathrooms cleaned, swiffered the floors, and 3 loads of laundry done. I've got one left to fold that are just about done in the dryer. The other two loads I've got hanging in the laundry to dry on their own. I've put in my request for a clothes line, so here's hoping that happens next summer here. 

3 of the day

Sep. 14th, 2017 05:30 pm
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 Elit3 for today

1) Cleared off the coffee table, picked up a folded store receipt, 10 dollar bill fell out of it.

2) Found an old binder will all kinds of old usernames/email addresses and online accounts.

3) Enjoyed sitting outside and just appreciating sites and sounds.

It's all good

Sep. 14th, 2017 01:47 pm
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What a great way to start my day, seeing some DW messages in my email account. Was really great reading them while I was sitting out on the front porch with my morning coffee. Thank you to those that responded to my intro on the community . I also reconnected with an old LJ friend here, Kristy, and am so glad to have her as part of my list on DW.  Plus another DW friend and I have reconnected here. I forgot how great it is to have a journal. Ever since Facebook hit, that pretty much seems to be the only place people hang out. Don't get me wrong I've had some great experiences using FB. In fact, that's how I found two half siblings I didn't know I had. The FB games have been good too. Just there's something about having an online journal that FB will never be able to compare to.

And Today...

Sep. 13th, 2017 06:55 pm
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 Elit3 for today

1)  Another awesome weather day and no migraine.

2) Listened to music via Spotify, everything I searched I was able to find.

3) Found a stack of books tucked away, shall keep those for reading this winter.

Song lyrics

Sep. 13th, 2017 06:35 pm
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I was listening to this song earlier and so decided to post the lyrics. I love just about everything Bob Dylan has ever written. My favorite version of this song though is by Eric Clapton.

Born In Time

In the lonely night
In the blinking stardust of a pale blue light
You’re comin’ thru to me in black and white
When we were made of dreams

You’re blowing down the shaky street
You’re hearing my heart beat
In the record-breaking heat
Where we were born in time

Not one more night, not one more kiss
Not this time baby, no more of this
Takes too much skill, takes too much will
It’s revealing
You came, you saw, just like the law
You married young, just like your ma
You tried and tried, you made me slide
You left me reelin’ with this feelin’

On the rising curve
Where the ways of nature will test every nerve
You won’t get anything you don’t deserve
Where we were born in time

You pressed me once, you pressed me twice
You hang the flame, you’ll pay the price
Oh babe, that fire
Is still smokin’
You were snow, you were rain
You were striped, you were plain
Oh babe, truer words
Have not been spoken or broken

In the hills of mystery
In the foggy web of destiny
You can have what’s left of me
Where we were born in time

Copyright © 1990 by Special Rider Music


16 Psyche

Sep. 11th, 2017 11:34 am
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 I don't have much to add this week, but I'll post this music video by Chelsea Wolfe since I've been listening to her new album.  She's a singer/songwriter from California, and I've been listening to her for a little while now.  Her music is insanely good, and her acoustic stuff is really beautiful.  I can't really describe it genre-wise, but if I had to it would be Doom metal/dark folk.  Her voice is really ethereal, and fits the music very well.  Also this video reminds me of that movie "Jacob's Ladder."

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Sep. 10th, 2017 11:38 pm
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My images are now suddenly locked? What's going on? They were viewable yesterday, now it's a blue box thing. What the hell is going on?
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Bingo card for [community profile] ladiesbingo

Physical imperfections Injury Dreams, Daydreams, Wishes The Writing on the Wall High School / College AU
Pre- Slash / Femslash / Het Hey, it's that guy: Minor characters A Blessing is Bestowed Icy Politeness Wibbly-wobbly-timey-wimey: Time travel
It Wasn't Meant to Be Fire and Firelight Wild Card Road trip Partnership
Angst Laughter Wings Declarations of Love It all depends on this one choice
Soldier, Sailor, Airman: Armed Forces Member Watching Helplessly Secret Identity Oaths / Promises Infiltration